When the illumined are illumed
in the shadows of darkness,
Twisted thoughts masking initial intent,
writhing, stark remains of regurgitated words
pound relentlessly in falling heart,
sharp pain spreading like fingers
across sordid language,
tossing and turning in hoping, just hoping,
hoping eating the edges of fantasy,
crossing caustic fields of a western stake out,
guns drawn shaking in gut, in mind, in doubt,
deathly bullets of love
never seemed so tragic
as forever not true,
…Not then
…not now
…not ever
Sending me reeling,
keening into the night
of your reality.